My Time Is Not Up
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
I was in pain for several weeks. I tried to fight but I can’t bare the pain. I try to act As I am okay in front of everyone, but is hard. Then I was admitted to the hospital for 6 days. The first 4 days was hard. I can’t settle in and my body starts to ache. I was like struggling to fight for my fitness. My tears roll down my cheeks as I lay down on the bed. I barely speak. Yup, I cried. Life in there and fighting to get fit and to be able to be as a normal person is dam hard. It takes a lot of motivation and people who visited me encourage me to fight.
Right now, my life left with ma friends, family & my dear. Studies, job and other things like soccer are all gone. Right now, I start form scrap to rebuild my life. I got nothing. I am sad of what I am facing right now. I am like hopeless. But my dear said I always have a way to fight out of this misery & to be happy. What are the ways? That’s what I am thinking right now.
Right now, my life left with ma friends, family & my dear. Studies, job and other things like soccer are all gone. Right now, I start form scrap to rebuild my life. I got nothing. I am sad of what I am facing right now. I am like hopeless. But my dear said I always have a way to fight out of this misery & to be happy. What are the ways? That’s what I am thinking right now.
9:37 PM